Known as the wife of… remembered for everything after.
36 hours without food. No hunger drama. No dizziness. No magical clarity. Just… nothing. I started fasting to reset my body, but ended up questioning why we’re always trying to improve something that already works.
What we see in others often says more about us than we realize. A reflection on confidence, ambition, jealousy, and what happens when you stop making yourself smaller to keep others comfortable.
My misophonia was never subtle. But since going carnivore, it feels like someone removed a filter. Sounds are sharper, louder and somehow drinking has joined the list of things capable of sending me from perfectly normal colleague to internally homicidal in 0.4 seconds. And no, “everyone makes noise when they drink” is not an acceptable defence. You can’t hear me.
After two strong seasons, we thought the next club would come naturally. It didn’t. Pregnant, living in an attic and watching football doors close one by one, I stopped waiting and started knocking myself. Then one unexpected phone call from Texas changed everything.
What happens after Cyprus? Apparently, a wedding, a one-way ticket to Finland, no honeymoon, and a crash course in married life. In Valkeakoski, between endless summer light, enormous moose and unexpected loneliness, I learned that starting over can change a marriage in ways you never see coming.
Nearly twenty years ago, Cyprus was supposed to be just one football season. Instead, it became the place where Hans and I truly became a team, where friendships turned into family, and where I first saw the side of professional football nobody really talks about. Beautiful beaches, unpaid salaries, strange situations, unexpected loyalty, and even a run-in with the police, some stories stay with you forever.
